I have girl problems, without a doubt. I completely and unutterly admit, that I have girl problems. Even if you knew and that it was obvious, now there would be no need to stress and for me and you to argue. Yes I still have feelings for Yuki, yes I still have feelings for Erica, yes I still have feelings for Toriin, I still have feelings for Sharon, I still have feelings for Lisa, I still have feelings for Mai, I still have feelings for Janice, and I still have feelings for Kyoshi. It is so hard for me, I have extreme issues and I can not resolve them on my own in my current state of mind.

It's easier to get over Victoria then I used to. I grew up. It's definitively easier to get over Sharon, Lisa, and Mai.

For Toriin, I might have a hard time getting over, even if it never was genuine from his side, and it felt one sided to me, I still have feelings for him.

It's hard to get over Erica, probably because she left me for a guy who didn't even like her from the start and that he wanted to fight me.

For Janice, even with lack of communication for around 5 years, I still retain feelings for her.

Kyoshi. . .I can already say I love him with all my heart, I can't hold back feelings for him no matter what. I would kiss him and make out with him and hold onto him and bury my face in his chest. I love him, He is the hardest for me to get over but I can't stop dreaming of how he would look around this age. In the end, I feel as if it was unrequinted love, forgive me for my misspellings.



Even if I said girl problems, Kyoshi was the only male in my life who I have had a serious relationship with. I kept in contact for him even when I moved, we went online and talked, and sometimes even talked on the phone. Half a year later, he stopped calling, and he stopped getting online. When I realized he wasn't getting on, I cried but I didn't cry.

I want to cry, even now, but no tears will come out, but the sadness burns and scars my heart, the very center of my feelings.