ok well i havent posted for a while so i though i would update a little.
umm school is awesome.
i love my french class.
i can now say the alphabet in french :D
ummm i posted new pis in my gallery.
please go look!

http://www.playanime.com/gallery/dark_falls/

see i even made a little easier for you lol
ummm i dont know what else to say.
i got my hair cut. yay! and im gonna dye my bangs purple when i get the dye from my cuz. lol
im tired and about ready to fall asleep at the comp.....
so i think im going to go to bed.
good night people.
ttyl.
leave comments please.
i like feeling loved lol.

~hobbit~

well lets see....
my bfff is hangin out with me tomorrow yay cory!!!
im going to the movies tomorrow night with my other bfff yay joanna!!!
and my other bfff is transfering to my school this year!!! yah hannah!!!
lmao
me and hannah are gonna cause hell for that school
we're like the she devils when we get together lol
and im making joanna join us MUAHAHAHAHAHA!
im corrupting her lol.
soo things are finally goin good.
although my stepmother is being a total bitch lol
ohh i found out that our neighbors dont like my stepmother either lol
lets see none of my friend or their parents like her and i hate her lol.
well anyway YAY ME!!!!
im finally starting to be happy after the hell i've been going through.
and i hope it last a while.

i feel soo miserable >.>
and lonely.
i mean when im hangin out with my friends im fine.
it sucks though.
today is my sisters b-day.
my dad's at work and my stepmother is alseep.
and im just blahhhh.
maybe i'll just go for a walk or something.

god >.>
my mother is all on this revenge thing
tryin to track down the guy who gave my sis the drugs and she doesnt get it.
she would have gotten them one way or the other and eanyone else looking for drugs will just find someone else to get them from.
and she's tryin to tell me its not revenge. and it is.
and her asshole bf is out of jail.
her weirdo friends are pissing me off.
and she's all like they maybe a little out there but they're good people.
BULLSHIT!
im not stupid.
one of her "friends" kicked in her door and shit. oh yea he's on of the good guys he means well.
god i wish she wouldnt act like im 5 and believe everything out of her mouth.
im not stupid.

im am totally exhuasted
i stayed up all night so i wouldnt sleep in all day and i could finally get the things i need to get done.
so i just spent the last 6 hours cleaning and orginaizing my room.
now its nearly perfect.
i say nearly cuz i have other little thing to do.
a couple of drawers to go tougher and some anime posters to put up and what not.
but i am soo accident prone....i hurt my self multiple times......i lost count
i hit my head on a wall....not intentionally......i was getting up.....
hit my back many many times on the corner desk in my room.......
and my head on it too......agian not intentional......
and i got a splinter in my hand >.> it actually bleed quite a bit after i pulled it out.
and one of the times i hit my back on the corner of my desk....i sctarched kinda bad and it was all bloody...i didnt even know it was bleeding until i felt it run down my back a little......
yea you guys probably didnt want those details but whate ever.....
any way im exhausted
have a head ache
and hurt all over.......
oh and i got rid of 2 trash bags of crap...school papers and just crappp lol
oh and im getting rid of a bag of cloths and a bag of stuffed animals that im donating ^.^
i think im finally starting to feel better and kinda happy now that i worked my fustration and sadness out...a little.....i still need major help lol xD
anyway yea i feel better...sorta :D
love ya all!!!

~hobbit~

ok so i made this video for my sis.
please watch it.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=x7JxoW7fbeY

this is gonna sound weird cuz school sucks.
but i want to school to start already!
i need a distraction >.> and its not like i can do much right now cuz im grounded.
it completely sucks.
i miss my friends.
i miss my sister.
i dont know what to do anymore.
my dad is still giving me that" im disappointed in you" look.
like i dont feel bad enough. and i have this stupid appointment to meet with some guy at the juvvy center. and my dad was all like i dont want you to wear eyeliner or make up. it looks horrible. gee dad thanks for you confidence.
and he's all be respectful and answer all their questions. like im gonna refuse to say anything and im gonna be a total brat. i mean come on i dont need to get into any more trouble.
he's acting like im not a person anymore and im just a delinquent he has to take care of. its nice to know he cares.
not saying that he doesnt its just like he's being a jerk. i know he's stressed out and losing my sister really messed us all up but god you know he doesnt know how hard it is for me and i dont need him treating me like crap cuz he's stressed.
im soo frustrated cuz i just seem to be messin up everything. and all my good friends are out of town and its like what do i do now?
none of them get back for a couple more weeks and im getting really bored. and i only got 1 more week left of being grounded.
it all just sucks.
i really miss my sister.
i cant believe she was soo stupid.
i mean im no angel i've done drugs and what not but god i didnt know how bad she was into it.
i wish she was still here...

i dont get it.
people keep blaming the person who gave my sister the drugs for her death.
and you know it was her fualt she was the one who got caught up in that shit.
its her fualt.
not some drug dealer.
she's the one who overdose.
she's the one who buaght the drugs.
and people dont get that.
its pissing me off.
i love her. she's my sister. but it was her fualt.
and nobody gets how hard this has been one me.
its been a month since she died.
and i've cried every night since she died.
its soo hard.
everyone else cries when they talk about her.
but i dont......
but when im alone in my room and i think about her i cry.
i miss her soo much.
it was soo hard this past weekend cuz i got use to seeing her when ever i was at my moms.
and....she wasnt there....
i almost couldnt handle it.
i dont know if i can handle it any more....its not getting any easier.

it was ok i guess.
when i got dropped off at my moms i notice she had a bruise under eye.
soo i asked her about it.
her bf is in jail cuz he hit her.
now she did smack him first cuz he called her the C word.
and she hates that.
but he down right punched her in the face >.<
and this was a week ago.
and she didnt press charges and defended him in front of the judge.
and he will be out within the next week.
im soo pissed off at him.
cuz its not the first time he has hit her.
and when i see my mom the next time im gonna tell him
if he hits her again....i'll make sure that he disappears.
anyway......
i went out canoeing today.
it was fun i went swimming.
it was soo nice out today.

well i guess im going to my moms this weekend.
im not sure how long im gonna be there.
probably only a few days.
but anyway soo yea this is going to be an interesting visit.
i havent been over at my mom's since my sis died.
so i dont know whats gonna happen.
leave me comments and messages.