OK so this is more of a 'get things out of my head so it doesn't torture me' journal lol.
OK SO i just feel so overwhelmed lately.
like school is getting confusing. i feel like i'm not understanding what I'm learning. and I'm not sure how to get it to where i do understand and I'm not so damn confused.
secondly. thing at home are getting way to tense. no one is really talking any more cuz it all just ends up to be arguments. especially with me and like my personal life. i don't want to tell them that. i would be dead lol.
*sigh* who knows anymore. sometimes i wonder why I'm still alive, you know? its like whats the point your going to die anyway so what use is all the things you learn and all the life lessons and shit for? it doesn't make since.
and another thing. you know how you suppose to find who you are and crap. how the hell am i suppose to figure that out. I'm SO fucking confused.
its like what the hell?
i don't get this shit. i like learning shit from a book like a teacher telling you this is how you do this and its all logical but life Inst logical and you cant be taught how to live, you just do it and learn from your mistakes and what is right for you might not be for another person so you just go through life learning how to live basically.

anyway I'm just really confused i guess.
so that it s for now.
please comment.

~blessed be~