last night i got really fucked up.
im not gonna lie.

i was stayin at a guys house i know. his name is oryo. well its actually cory. but he doesnt like his name so. he goes by his juggalo name. which is oryo. anyways...

basically, i walked outside. and he lives in bumfuck nowhere right. and im stoned and wasted out of my mind. i couldnt walk i could barely talk and i just looked up at the sky and fell on the ground and layed there for two hours with this guy. and we just looked at the stars and stuff.


ive been depressed the last week because i havent seen one star in the sky. and when i was outside with this kid i swear ive never seen so many stars in my life. i think it might be a sign. im not sure what of, but it just seems like it would be the point in the movie where i make some really important yet really spontaneous life altering decision.


i think im going to buy a one way bus ticket to new orleans...and just drop everything. e v e r y t h i n g. and just go.

i wish i had the balls to do that...

anyways i have half an hour before i have to go to work for the rest of the night. and i was up till 6am this morning and then got 2 hours of sleep and work is not fun when your tired and hungover. so. im going to nap.

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